Balance

I am at the moment working on finding my inner balance. I´m trying my best to listen to my feelings and to my body instead of listening to the little voice inside my head that tells me what I should and what I should not do. 

I am  approaching this in two ways : 

1. Take care of your body: The best advice I can give anyone in this field is to take care of your body as if it was a baby. Would you ever starve a baby, or stuff it with enormous amounts of foods? Or cut it with a razor blade  or with a knife? Burn it with a cigarette , or hit a babies head against a wall repeatedly ? Would you ever stick your fingers down a babies throat and induce vomiting?
The answer is no. 

Yet many of us do this to own bodies. 

So at the moment I am listening to my body and to what it needs from all points of view. If its tired I am making it rest, if it´s hungry I am feeding it. I am learning to listen and trust the signals it  gives me and not punishing it for my mistakes. 

2. Listen to your feelings: I am doing this by writing a secret diary at least two times a day, sometimes more if I am having a bad day. I write down my thoughts and my feelings. This is helping me understand why I have such a low self esteem, its helping me understand my feelings and why I react the way I do to thinks.

New research has shown that it takes 3 month to change a behavior and make new habits, and not 3 weeks (21 days) as it was earlier claimed. I hope that I, 3 months from now will be a step closer to myself and to my inner balance.